sad to say, no matter how hard i try to observe and emulate the true leaders, i can never quite comfortably succeed with satisfactory results. there is the stretching i need to do in order to show that i do care. there is the part about sensitivity that i need to display in taking care of people's feelings. There is also this big lesson i've learnt about respect that plays a major part in getting people onto your side.
do i care enough? do i enjoy serving people? have i been overly self-centered that i forgot about those around me?
relationships come into focus whenever i need a favour and i feel trapped and unhappy when i've to use my authority to get things done. humans are complicated. you have to please them before they will go out of the way to help you. this is what i considered extra work. sometimes it's as simple as spending time to get to know a person. i often ask myself why i'm unwilling to do so? maybe i don't treasure relationships at all and prefers to be self-sufficient? what sort of upbringing have i received to mold me into what i am today?
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This is the best entry I have seen. It shows the progress U have made in terms of your blogging 'ability', thought process and self-reflecting capability. I guess U might have to constantly qn urself about how ur upbringing has brought U to where U are now & how different this has made U, as compared to others. Only by understanding urself better can U then understand others :)
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