Renewing my promise

how far would you exert or stretch to achieve personal growth?

it depends on how much you really want it.

there are those who are deterred by the physical distance while others simply follow blindly because of herd mentality. some pay lip service without really committing to fulfill the goals. there are also many who are happy to rest on their laurels. bad habits are hard to break.

it really boils down to 'What's In It For Me'? do i have a sense of where i'm going by the little sacrifices i've made today. what am i passionate about?

it's important to have clearly defined goals to steer oneself towards the ultimate direction, reducing the possibility of making detours and wasting time.

Easier said than done.

many a times, it is through making mistakes that one tend to have a better picture of our likes, dislikes and personal goals. sometimes being weak and undecisive, we are controlled by our emotions. closing an eye or both to the reality have led me to be disillusioned, dependent and depressed - i've lost sight of what used to be important to me.

luckily in life, there are always second chances. although damage is not totally reversible, the little setback has taught me to be more self reliant and independent. afterall, life is like a blank drawing board where it is up to us to define where we are going.

recently in toastmasters, we were on this theme on 'Renewing our Promises'. what have i forgotten that has been dearest to me for decades? i have compromised on why i had committed to this cause in the beginning. it's time to renew that single promise that i've made. without it, i will be akin to a ship without an anchor, being swayed constantly by the passing waves. today, i've realised how far i've been from my original commitment. thankfully, it is not too late to do an about-turn.