do i really have NO TIME?

when the whole world is sound asleep, i'm still feeling energetic after 12 hrs of work with only 5 hrs of sleep the night before. can i do better with less sleep?


the realisation of the little 'i's that is seriously affecting my quality of life has been identified. i had unknowingly and habitually telling myself that 'I HAVE NO TIME'.

no time to talk on the phone
no time to do admin work
no time for meetings
no time to do my speeches
no time for movies
no time for housework
no time to slow down to catch a breather

AND

the list goes on

it gets worse each day. i'm on the path of self destruction when it's just all in the mind. it is crippling, depressing and unfortunate.

ever wonder how role playing works to curb the bad habit?

indeed self talking can produce wonderful results. i can keep my bad habits at bay by countering it with simple acts. it diminishes the hold on me.

what's driving me? is it just growth? i'm still on the journey of discovering it. N now, its back to my homework before the another day begins.

steadfast in love

how do u react when u feel loved?

Are you more talkative and expressive than before? Would you be feeling all charged up and be all ready to serve whenever called upon? Do u have that internal energy that is spurring u up to go the extra mile?

i saw that level of heighten chirpyness in my mum who was especially expressive and energetic tonight, tending to things big and small. she expresses her love through acts of service. her behaviour gave me the impetus to pen this blog as i had recently found a new meaning about life and the way in determining happiness.

being clueless about myself, i had latched onto things and people who could only give me temporary happiness. after the peak is gone, i'm left wondering why i'm still unhappy. the emptiness is depressing. just like a ship without an anchor, i was drifting wherever the tide is taking me. do people enjoy true happiness? does the search for happiness end when one has found their true love?

the tide is slowing turning. just like a ship changing course, the process is long. but slowly and steadily, the results are showing. happiness is about knowing myself, having a set of goals to work towards where i could draw strength to fuel me for the journey ahead. the need to have positive affirmation was the symptom of having low self esteem. i did not know what was holding me back. the inertia was crippling me. what was i really hestitating about?

in a nutshell, i've graduated with the new found knowledge that i can be a bird in the sky...

Ready, Get Set n GO!

my sunday was marred by having to put with some bimbos uttering nonsense in a bid to fill the silence....

pointless chatter and the childish crowd has extinguished much of the zest and energy i've built up over the week, leaving me feeling disheartened and discouraged.

it dawns upon me that i need to be around with people with the same vision to thrive in positivity.

what's my best ammunition against the negativity surrounding me?

'Do your work' are the golden nuggets of advice that i have to keep chanting to myself. i dunno how the 7 weeks will turn out to be. i'm afraid of the valleys that i'll be going through. i'm worried about the uphill climb. i'm skeptical of the goals i've set.

tomorrow's a new week. i'm gonna gear up to fight the internal battle and hope for the best. My first target - to report for work punctually......... :U

i'm loving iT!

Praise and humor - at least this is what i've found to be effective in connecting with people.

there are also various levels of establishing connection:
1) physical connection
2) emotional connection
3) psychological connection
4) intellectual connection

sitting down and observing the many outstanding individuals who have given excellent speeches on stage, i aspire to be one of them who would stand proud and tall to be the center of attention. most importantly, it is the excitement to share part of my real self to the entire world without the need to hold myself back. and yes, laughing over my own silly mistakes inadvertently added fun and laughter for the audience.

what was i afraid of in the past? why did i waste so much energy trying to conceal my real self? life is alot more interesting and hopeful knowing that there is so much more i can do to make a difference and discard my old self!

the cost of making wrong decisions

saying 'NO' and telling the truth requires a lot of determination and courage.

its not easy to be firm as rejection results in strained relationships with long term consequences.

sometimes promises are made in a hurry and pulling out puts me in a bad light.

i'm just but a drop in the big ocean. am having regrets about a wrong decision.